| I about laughed myself to tears reading my old posts. I haven't been on Xanga since I was fifteen or so. I'm eighteen now, turning nineteen in this upcoming February. I can't believe how much I've changed since those posts were written. Here's an update though. I enjoyed every aspect of high school. My freshman year was terrific. I was careless and free. I met a lot of people and had many great times. My best friends that year were Kandis and Kelly. We had our own little group and called ourselves the Rainbow Mafia. Towards the summer of our freshman year, we started hanging out with Taylor and Gabby. We started calling them cookies in reference to our code name for weed. That was something we all did together. Toke up, pig out, watch a movie, and pass out at Gabby's house. We also went to Busch Gardens religiously in the summer time. Sophomore year was filled with more adventures and shows! My attire consisted of skinny jeans, band tees, flats, and patterned hoodies. I finally colored my hair purple. I came across a post about me wishing I could dye my hair purple. Well Kandis and I fell apart, something about me being annoying. Her and Gabby became closer. Taylor and Gabby have always been close. Kelly and I stuck together. Her family took me on a cruise. It was a lot of fun and very relaxing. I wish I could take another week off. Also my sophomore year, my beloved friend from elementary school, Kristen Malcom or anarchy_kisses, passed away in a car accident. I attended her memorial and caught up with a lot of people I went to elementary and middle school with. To this day, I don't keep in touch with too many of those kids. I hit up Vivian on MySpace. She's gained a lot of weight and doesn't have a job or go to school. Cory lives in Florida. He's gay. I remember wanting to lose my virginity to him. Hahahaha. Brittany finally moved to West Virginia and she wants to move back. Brian plays music at Aroma's with his friend, Gary. They have such great harmony. Oh, I kind of sort of dated him last year, but I broke up with him. Anyway, my junior year was a blur. I didn't too well in school. A new high school opened up and I was districted for it being that I lived down the street. I became closer to my neighbor across the street, Annie. We shared packs of cigarettes and snuck outside together to smoke. Her, Kelly, and I took driver's ed together. Like I said, my junior year was a blur. I didn't pay too much attention to what was going on. There's a reason for that and I decided to make that another part of this update. My senior year was planned out to be good, but I lost motivation somehow. I graduated though. First class. I'm not releasing the name of my high school or city or residence. Throughout the years, I've grown to value my privacy online. My love or lack of love life since I last posted...
We all know that I was deeply infatuated with my best guy friend, Cory. Well I mentioned he moved and came out of the closet. We never talked about a relationship and that's how that went. Freshman year I "went out" with this kid, Nick M. We weren't much of a couple. I talked to this guy, Nick K. a lot. We talked about dating a lot and loved each other. He moved away in the middle of my sophomore year and I waited for him. When he came back, he was different and I was overwhelmed with feelings. He no longer had feelings for me and I was very upset. That summer I dated this kid, Roy. That was a cute relationship while it lasted. I sixteen then and he was fourteen. When I first met him, he told me he was fifteen. I didn't find out he was fourteen until we broke up. Hahahahaha. Around that time is when I met Bobby, who is my boyfriend now! =D But before I started dating Bobby, I dated a few assholes who changed me. After Roy, there came Ben. Blue eyed brunette. He was eighteen and I was sixteen. We met at a Bring Me the Horizon show. He tapped me on the shoulder, told me I was pretty, and asked for my name. At the time, I've always wanted to meet someone at a show and fall in love with them. I was so attracted to this boy that I didn't care how far he lived. He lived an hour away. That didn't last long at all. He cheated on me with his ex-girlfriend. Her and I talked to each other. He was lying to the both of us. That's the first time I've ever been cheated on and then came Joshua. I lost my virginity to him. I thought it felt right. I was so "in love" with him. We talked on the phone every night and texted throughout the day. He played guitar and sang to me. It was perfect, until he started hanging out with his ex-girlfriend. He called me crying and told me he had cheated on me. I was thankful that he told me and that I didn't find out through her. You would think I'd end it there, but I didn't. A couple of weeks after he told me, we both decided it didn't feel right anymore. He still called every night. I tried my best to stay away from him, although I terribly wanted to be with him. We stayed close until we started seeing other people. I was very much so hung up on him for a long time until I realized how I felt for Bobby. I mentioned him earlier. We've been really good friends for a while now. We've fooled around before, but this time it's serious. He may not be as mouth watering as Ben or as sexy as Josh, but he's definitely everything I want. Intelligent. Musically inclined. Cutesy. Loving. I love him a lot. I sometimes cry because I'm so happy with him. Ha, this is a terrible update, but I've grown tired of typing and lost track of what I was talking about. This is it though. I bought a journal, so I could write all my thoughts and such there. Hahahaha. I'm going to check my Facebook now. Maybe I'll post some pictures of me throughout the years some other time. |
